So I’ve been stuck. Just blatantly stuck about blogging...mostly because of scheduling craziness. But also because here’s where I am:
I’m at this place of emotional rest whilst in physical busy-ness and a smidge of chaos (move number three ((and the final move!)) coming in two weeks folks!). But after a season of such emotional upheaval, it’s hard to feel as dynamic and inspired and reflective as a writer. I love LOVE being in a season that is just so freaking wonderfully overflowing with GOOD. But again--no one wants to read a list of how great life is going or whatever. (I’m sorry you guys, this is like... not at all my best writing, I just need to break through my writer’s block and it has to be with this overly honest real-talk. If you love me, let me whine a little and then give me coffee, but I digress)
I’m at this strange place of looking back and seeing so clearly the times of crying out and saying “God I choose you because you’re all I have and there is nothing else!” and looking forward saying “God I choose you because I love you but I have to sift through all of the everything else to be focused on just you and not forget.”
I’m not complaining, not at all. But I don’t want to get spoiled. I don’t want to forget all that God did while I was raw and tender. I don’t want to take it for granted.
But I also don’t want to live off yesterday’s lessons alone. I want new ones. I want new inspiration--and I know it’s there I know that the Creator, Father, God is awe inspiring. But it’s different you know? It’s different drinking water when you hardly notice feeling thirsty.
There’s so so much more. I have this whole part 2 and 3 thing in my mind. I feel like I can finally sort out normal life things, like how it’s really hard being a mom or balancing ambition with contentment or how to be ministered to while still being called to minister...so many blogs in my brain. Now….just to find the time to write!