So I know that strategically as blogging goes...I should either be a daily poster...or I should wait a few days to post again...but as we are becoming reacquainted on this new site I'll just remind you that kinda strategy just isn't my style. So I'm just gonna do something crazy and post an impromptu post!
I wanted to briefly share with you what the Lord has been teaching me recently. I've been reading through Acts with the IF: Equip reading plan (and I highly recommend it!) and following Paul and the life of the Church and all the churches that he visits. Reading this part of Scripture is like putting a giant mirror in my face. What kinda of believer am I? What kind of Church member am I? What kind of leader am I? These are questions that I end up asking myself almost daily as I'm reading through Acts. I used to think of Acts as a manual for how church leaders should set up and run churches. I didn't really consider how it affected me on a personal level. But as I am getting further into Acts this one phrase keeps coming to my mind.
I think sometimes I fool myself into thinking that I am walking in obedience to God when I'm not at all. It's like I think I'm throwing God a bone by giving Him halfsies. So. Absurd. Those of you who are parents or teachers or employers can probably relate with me on this. In my book partial obedience from my kids is not obedience. Period. I've been convicted about that in my own heart. God has commanded me to put down my self righteousness, not when it's easy but all the time. God has asked me to make some sacrifices or act in submission in areas--not up to a point, but totally and completely and with joy. Walking in obedience, walking in light means FULL OBEDIENCE. Not as far as I see it. Not to the point of "I know I've done what I need to do to feel good about this." No, FULL obedience, complete obedience. What is the most I can do to walk in obedience, faithfully serving the Lord with no agenda of my own? This is the challenge that echoes in my heart and drives me toward Christ in the last little while. What is the echo of your heart? What is the Holy Spirit impressing upon you in recent days?